Once upon a long, long time ago I started a FB conversation with a coworker. She dressed provocatively, was out spoken and needed to be the center of attention (physical) just like I like’em. Our conversation began to escalate into flirting a little more each time we spoke until one day…
It was a cold rainy morning…my wife works from home so as was her normal routine; she got up, performed her morning duties and went downstairs to her office. I figured I’d get a few more minutes before logging onto FB to chat with a ‘friend’, then head off to work myself. Upon, logging into my account, it seems that I’m already having a conversation with my ‘friend’ and its been going on for a while now. “Oh my god,” I think to myself.
I immediately type into the chat: Hey, I gotta run I’ll talk to you later. As I started to read all the posts my heart raced faster. A lump swelled in my throat as I tried to swallow the realization of what was to come. By a hair’s width of saving grace, I had only been having topical flirtatious conversation with her…up to that point. However, this didn’t curb the enthusiasm of chaos that would ensue. As you can guess, I was torn a new one. It took several months before we were able to totally resolve that issue because…I got caught talking to her again! (Smh) I was actually trying to break it off with her gently, but she wasn’t having it. Finally, I had to become rude to get the point across.
Now I knew I was wrong, so why, why did I feel the need to cause such mayhem in my home? What was it about this girl who made me willing to sacrifice all that I had just for conversation? It was the thrill of sneaking that FB provides that overwhelms logical thought. Well, after not speaking to her for a while I saw her again in passing. She looked totally different to me than she did when we first met. The conversation was less than exciting and I got this feeling of…”This is what I was getting into trouble for?” The thrill was gone. The taboo that once was, was no more. It made me stop to think of how many times I’ve actually met some one that I was loony over at first, that later turned out to be just another person with issues like me.
See, our emotions are very powerful and very tricky. They can make you see things that aren’t really there, feel things that you can’t explain and cause us to act out in very unusual manners. Nothing is stronger to us than our emotions so, in order to control them, you have to out smart them. Know your areas of weakness and avoid situations that allow your weaknesses to manifest themselves.
I am happy to say that, that was the last FB incident and I have started to see things from the end of the situation to the beginning. That was a task let me tell you. I’m no different than anyone else, I can be as good as the best of them or as bad as the worst…I only ‘choose’ to be better now. If we could all see the consequences of our actions before we make these decisions…our lives would be a lot better off. The funny thing is for the most part we could if we only tried and put our emotions and feelings on punishment. Bad emotions! Bad!
Thanks for listening